crash

I've been in an incredibly strange mood the past couple of days, the kind that only happens every once in a while, thank goodness. I get where I don't care about anything, I could careless what happens with most things. I'm there. I've been completely apathetic to most things surrounding me. My individual self is usually packed full of optimism for the most part, but it's like pessimism has over taken me the past few days.
Work was terrible today, and I sat at my desk and counted to ten to keep from crying. What is up with that? Who lets kids push them to the edge of a mental breakdown. I seriously have to get it together. I swear I've talked about how much I love it and then today, it was like the worst thing ever. I've been like a raw nerve that gets set off by the smallest thing.

It's been an build up of several things I'm sure and receiving my first ever eviction warning today didn't help one damn thing since I started work a month later than I thought I would and all my bills were due like yesterday.

I'm working overtime to find a bright spot in the day. Coffee with a friend is about the only thing that dug me out of a hole tonight. 

Things will get better, things will get better, things will get better -- I'll keep repeating this until Friday afternoon at 4 pm.

Peace out.