moment of ... I don't know what

I've been dreading this day for a while now. Today, had I not made a huge decision to walk away, my life would have changed. Likely, not for the better. Instead though, I made several huge decisions before today that I like to think changed my life for the better. I'm not the person I was 8 months ago. I don't know who I am, or what I want, or what I'm meant to eventually be, but I like to think it's going to be something good in result to the decision I made to walk away.

My personality type scares me sometimes. I'm afraid that I'll never be happy and always want more. Granted, it's not bad to continually set goals for yourself, but what if you set goals or wants that are unattainable, are you always left discontent? Right now, I have a list of things that I want for myself and want to become, maybe I'll get there. I read this quote last night:
"You can have everything you want, it might just not be all at once".
I remind myself daily to be patient, we'll get there.

Here are the top things on my list:
- Get back to my ideal clinical setting {nursing home or hospital}. Considering I just renewed my contract, it will definitely be a while before I achieve this one.

-Hone my craft and make it profitable. I'm really hoping between now and summer, I find my medium and make time to do it and hopefully open an Etsy shop.

-Stop caring what everyone thinks and get the tattoos I want. This one may seem silly to some, but I've always aired on the side of caution with my ink because I don't want to be immediately judged because of them, I'm getting to the point of "Let them judge me, they are the ones that would be missing out".
That's my short list for now.

I've had a million emotions coursing through my veins and soul lately and I'm just trying to sort them and make some kind of sense of them.

Today, to take my mind off things, I completed something I've wanted to do for a while now that will help me feel a little better about myself. Shallow in means perhaps, but instead of being embarrassed about something from my past, now I can be proud of something. I'll post pics at a later date.